To the father of my kids:
I truly wanted us to be the parents who could co-parent seamlessly, better than what is expected in this narcissistic age.
But the thing is, sometimes things just don’t work. You have been my best friend for the better part of a decade, through everything: the joy, the elation, the defeat, the pain.
I’ve still supported and loved you and I always will. Only from now I will love you and cheer for you silently from a distance.
It’s over… now what? What do you do once you’ve made the decision that your relationship is over? Mandy Nolan explains in our podcast, The Split.
I’m ready to choose myself; I must believe I’m worthy of happiness. I must believe it’s okay to let go even though I will grieve you horrendously and will feel like I can’t breathe without you.
It’s hard losing a part of myself because you’ve always been my person, my friend, my family. But you? You don’t do so well with loyalty, compassion, honesty.
I don’t think you’ve ever tried to hurt me but none the less you do. You hurt our family with your selfish, entitled, angry verbal outbursts. I see sadness in our children’s eyes and I see the way people look at me when you scream at me in the supermarket. I see the way women mouth at me ‘are you okay?’ when you aren’t looking, because your anger radiates through a room.