"I'm not happy. I can't sleep. I'm so angry. It's insane. And I'm depressed. I cry every day."
Following years of forced silence, Britney Spears is asking a Los Angeles court to end the conservatorship that has controlled every part of her life since 2008.
For 13 years, the mother-of-two has been unable to make personal and financial decisions. Her father holds the role, by law, of her conservator - essentially a legal guardian.
After years of worldwide concern, and the uproar of the #FreeBritney movement, Spears is speaking for the first time.
The popstar has delivered an impassioned speech via phone link in a LA courtroom, which she demanded to be broadcast publicly. Here are some of the key moments.
1. 'This conservatorship is abusive.'
In a 23-minute speech, Spears said she was abused and exploited while living under her conservatorship.
“I shouldn’t be in a conservatorship if I can work. The laws need to change,” Ms Spears told the judge.
Indeed, unlike most people who are put under the constraints of a conservatorship, Spears has managed to continue her highly successful career. Since 2008, she has released three albums, been a judge on X-Factor and done several live shows, particularly in Las Vegas. According to Business Insider, her net worth in 2019 stood at $US59 million.
Spears said she did her 2018 concert tour against her will, and was fearful of what would happen if she did not comply.
"I truly believe this conservatorship is abusive... I’ve been in denial. I’ve been in shock. I am traumatised,” the 39-year-old shared.
“I just want my life back.”
2. Britney Spears has been forced to take birth control.
Spears says she is currently forced to take birth control, despite her desire to have a baby.
"I was told right now in the conservatorship, I'm not able to get married or have a baby," Spears told the court, clearly emotional.
"I have a IUD inside of myself right now so I don't get pregnant. I wanted to take the IUD out so I could start trying to have another baby. But this so-called team won't let me go to the doctor to take it out because they don't want me to have any more children...
"I deserve to have a life. I've worked my whole life. I deserve to have a two to three year break and just, you know, do what I want to do."
Spears has two sons and is currently dating actor Sam Asghari, who wore a “Free Britney” shirt on his Instagram Story hours before the court hearing.
3. "I didn't think anybody would believe me."
Spears said she stayed silent on her conservatorship because she didn't think people would believe her.
"It's embarrassing and demoralising — that's the main reason I've never said it openly. And mainly, I didn't want to say it openly, because I honestly didn't think anyone would believe me, to be honest with you," Spears explained.
"People would make fun of me or laugh at me and say, 'She's lying, she's got everything, she's Britney Spears.'
"I'm not lying. I just want my life back. And it's been 13 years. And it's enough."
4. 'My dad should be in jail.'
Spears said her father, who serves as her conservator, should be in jail for his treatment of her.
"Ma'am, my dad and anyone involved in this conservatorship and my management who played a key role in punishing me — ma'am, they should be in jail," Spears said.
The popstar said her father "loved the control to hurt his own daughter 100,000 per cent".
Her father, Jamie Spears, said he is “sorry to see his daughter suffering and in so much pain”
5. 'The only thing similar is sex trafficking.'
Spears explained one example of being taken to a small rehab program in Beverly Hills where she was "abused".
She said she was forced to work against her will and had all her possessions taken away, including her credit card, cash, phone and passport.
"I worked seven days a week, no days off, which in California, the only similar thing to this is called sex trafficking...
"If I didn't do any of my meetings and work from eight to six at night, which is 10 hours a day, seven days a week, no days off, I wouldn't be able to see my kids or my boyfriend. I never had a say in my schedule."
Spears continued: "They all lived in the house with me, the nurses, the 24-7 security... They watched me change every day — morning, noon and night. I had no privacy from my room."
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