
Sophie Cachia had the perfect life.
She thought so, her family thought so, and her fans followed along with eager eyes, watching every moment she shared with her husband and kids.
And while she "didn't want to be the woman that walked away from the perfect family", she knew that there was something deep down inside of her that was going to find its way out, somehow, sometime.
And that something was triggered by one chance meeting in the middle of a totally normal work day. A chance meeting where Sophie metHER.
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Now, in her brand new podcast, HER with Sophie Cachia, Sophie speaks to women from all walks of life about the moment they met their HER. But she wanted to start with her own story.
Sophie's story begins when she was building her life with her ex-husband Jaryd Cachia.
"When I met my ex-husband, there was one word to describe it: Instant. It was meant to be for so many reasons. Sure, we were young, and we went through hiccups and we made our mistakes, but we always managed to communicate and get through.
"Fast forward a few years and I fall pregnant at 22. He was going to be a 21-year-old dad, and he just embraced that. Then we get to our mid-twenties and I want to get married. I want to marry that man. I wanted the same last name as my son. I wanted to become a family.
"Looking back now, that sounds so silly to me – because we were a family. And families come in all different dynamics. But the Sophie back then saw marriage as the end goal."
So that's what they did. Jaryd and Sophie tied the knot, with Sophie famously opting for a jet black ball gown to say I do.
"We got married, and it was perfect. We were so happy. It was a fairytale."
But after a more difficult time falling pregnant with their second child, something started to shift. Questions that had never popped into Sophie's head before were suddenly front of mind.
"When I fell pregnant with my second child and I told Jaryd, he was so happy. He had tears in his eyes. But, if I'm honest, in that moment, something switched in me. I don't think I've spoken about it before, but I do believe I suffered severe pre-natal anxiety and pre-natal depression. Did I really want this stay-at-home life? Looking back now, I was struggling with identity.
"I was on cloud nine when little Florence arrived. When I birthed her, I birthed all the pain and stress out of my body. But then these feelings started to creep in."
"It wasn't anything about women when it started. It was about me, and how I was feeling. And again, those feelings of 'is this it?' were just pounding at my head. I couldn't get rid of them. I spoke to Jaryd about all of this, and we would have many conversations dissecting it together."
But none of the conversations could have prepared her for what was next.
"I want to take you to a moment," Sophie explains. "It wasn't long after the birth of my daughter, Florence. I was so in love, and in my baby bubble, but I was feeling overwhelmed and going to work one night, and then I met... her."
Sophie shares that this meeting felt like thousands of sparks running through her body at once. It was electric, but she didn't know why it felt so good.
"I shook her hand and I couldn't look into her eyes. I was flustered, and my palms were sweaty. But I just wanted to talk to her, and I wanted to be around her. I met a woman who I was instantly attracted to. As a straight woman, I had never had this level of attraction to anyone before, let alone a woman.
"My eyes gazed up and down her biceps, up and down her very masculine, veiny hands, and I just had these sexual images in my head. And I'm trying to concentrate here, I'm here for work, but I don't know what's happening. Like, why am I attracted to this girl's veiny hands and chewed-down nails?!"
Sophie explains that she wanted to put a stopper in these feelings immediately, but she didn't know how. There was no off switch.
"My mind, my energy, my vagina were all going 'ALERT ALERT' and I was so confused."
Looking back now, she knows that she was meant to bump into her for a reason – even if it made zero sense to her at the time.
"In my relationship, in my marriage, I had never looked at anyone else – certainly not in this way. But it was as if someone had put her in front of me to get me to say, 'What the hell is my life?'"
While she was trying to unpack the noise in her mind, Sophie couldn't help but be drawn to her. It was a magnetic and all-consuming connection – one that she simply couldn't hide from her husband.
"It got to a point where Jaryd was well aware of how I was feeling about this woman, and I was just like 'I need to kiss her'because I truly thought if I just do it, and I kiss her, this feeling would be gone. I
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