My face has always been okay. Objectively okay. I mean, there were some rough times as a kid and teenager when it was ravaged by pimples and had the anti-glow of someone with zero confidence, but by age 27 it was on the way. Cheekbones sitting at the right spot. Teeth fixed shaping my chin properly. Clear skin, unprone to reddening.
I even hosted a TV show once, so my face, yeah, it’s objectively okay and I’d go as far to say that for most of my thirties, I actually liked it.
In my late thirties, moving back to the very image-conscious Sydney, I started to become curious about who had Botox and found when I started the conversation the most surprising people in my world had it. I work in theatre and media, so I expected actors to have it (most I chatted with didn’t), but I’d be surprised when I’d hear that some of my radio producer friends did. It became normal-ish.
A friend gave me the number of a great woman for when I was ready. I’ve never been ready.
Until, maybe, now?
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Have we ever spent so much time looking at our faces until now? Iso has meant countless meetings on Zoom and Google Meets and I know we’ve got a global pandemic happening, but all this extra face time has made me start worrying in earnest about my face.
And in particular, the signs my face is showing of ageing. I’m seeing crows feet, lines on my forehead, popped blood vessels in my cheeks, little pivots shooting from my lips to my jaw… OMG do I have the beginnings of jowls?