This story deals with domestic violence and family violence and could be triggering for some readers.
It was such a long time ago now, and he is someone buried deep in my past.
But at the time, we were in our 20s and in love, and so when it happened, I was in shock. My trust had been shattered.
On a lazy afternoon, we lay on his bed, chatting and laughing. We were being silly and joking around. I poked his side playfully, once, twice.
On the third poke, he snapped.
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He flipped me over him and onto his other side, with the ease of a pancake. My neck sunk into his pillow, and I remember the white wall staring at me as he yanked my arm behind my back. The force jolted me. Did he not know it?
“Stop! You’re hurting me. Stop!” I yelled out.
He didn’t. Instead, he mounted my back, wrenching my arm tighter still. I wriggled and writhed, trying to free myself, but couldn’t. Powerlessness. I kicked, my legs not long enough to connect with him as he continued to sit on me.