There is a lot of information out there regarding post-natal depression which is fantastic because as we create awareness, we can help the many mothers out there who suffer from this mental illness.
But we do not hear much about depression or anxiety during pregnancy even though it is thought up to 10 per cent of pregnant women actually have antenatal depression. Is it because we are scared to admit that even though we are told it’s meant to be the happiest time in our lives, sometimes it’s just not?
For me this was the case.
I suffered pretty badly with hyperemesis gravidarum (HG) when I was pregnant which eventually led to me being diagnosed with antenatal depression and anxiety.
My sickness started from before I even knew I was pregnant at only three weeks. From then on, it got worse and worse with many, many trips to the hospital and weeks and months on end in bed. There were days where I was so deliriously sick that I couldn’t walk and would sleep on the toilet floor for hours until my partner would come home from work and carry me back to bed. I think this is where the depression started as I never really got to experience the “joy” of finding out I was pregnant and getting excited about the future.
In the first 12 weeks I lost nearly 10kg from not being able to eat and then throwing up anything I did consume .
My body got a short break from the intensity of HG when between 20 weeks to 24 weeks when I travelled overseas. And by a break, I mean I would only throw up three to five times a day instead of five to 15 times.