Postnatal depression isn’t something that’s usually associated with men, and yet on average, one in 10 new dads struggle with it.
Penning an open letter to his 11-month-old daughter, Isabelle, Welsh dad Ross Hunt admitted there were times when he “hated” his baby.
“This might not sound very nice. But for the first 12 or so weeks after you were born, I didn’t like you very much,” he wrote on his blog, Isablog.
“There were times when I hated you. I regretted having you, and thought that my life had been ruined by you being born. I know that’s hard to read, but trust me, it’s incredibly hard to write too.”
He went on to write that while things have gotten easier, he still experiences bad days.
Ross told Isabelle these feelings were never actually his, rather they had been brought on by his depression, something he'd been struggling with since before she was even born.
"It’s been there a long time, and is probably always going to be there in some form. But I never thought it would try to tell me that I didn’t like you," he wrote.
"You see, depression can cause a person to think horrible things without their control, and make a person feel unhappy, angry, or even worse, make a person feel nothing at all. And that’s what it often did to me."
Ross said his depression often made him feel like running away shortly after his daughter was born, but he's happy he ignored his feelings and stuck around.