Content warning: This post deals with domestic violence, and may be triggering for some readers.
For some unknown reason (for ‘unknown reason’, read money and sympathy), singer Chris Brown is making a documentary about his life. In a trailer for the documentary, ‘Welcome To My Life’ he says he considered suicide after attacking then girlfriend Rihanna in the pre-Grammy incident that shocked the world in 2009.
“I felt like a fu**ing monster,” he says. “I was thinking about suicide and everything else. I wasn’t sleeping, I wasn’t eating. I just was getting high.”
Chris Brown, you felt like a fu**ing monster because you acted like a fu**ing monster. You are not the victim here. Your motives for making this documentary are crystal clear; you hope to tug on our heartstrings, turn around your public image and make money.
There are some things that you respect with silence. Forcing Rihanna to relive this nightmare is grossly selfish and narcissistic. Saying you contemplated suicide is not a fast-track to receiving our sympathy. There is a difference between feeling suicidal and being wracked with guilt and self-loathing.
It’s been seven years since Chris Brown viciously assaulted Rihanna that night in LA. Seven years? I remember the image of her bruised face as clearly as if I’d just seen it for the first time. I hope it’s imprinted in his mind as clearly as it’s imprinted in mine, although somehow, I doubt that.