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"I wish I had confided in more people." Carrie Bickmore on suffering two private miscarriages.

Writing for Stellar Magazine on Sunday, Carrie Bickmore opened up about having two miscarriages –  experiences she’s never talked about publicly.

The 37-year-old TV host explained that while she understands the recent push for women to share their pregnancy announcements earlier than 12 weeks, in order to help remove the taboo-nature surrounding miscarriages, it’s also a decision women need to make “in our own time”.

“If you wanna sing it from the rooftop the moment you see that gorgeous little blue line, that’s OK,” she wrote. “But there is nothing wrong with keeping your news close until you know things are likely to be OK.”

Bickmore said she believes “we need to remove the stigma around miscarriage for the sake of both women and men,” but added, “I know both times I miscarried, I was so relieved I hadn’t told many people I was pregnant.”

The mum-of-two, who is expecting her third child, described in detail what went through her mind after her miscarriages. “My mind raced,” she wrote. “Guess I won’t need to turn the office into a baby’s room. What if I never get pregnant again? We can go on holiday at the end of the year now.

“I wonder if it’s something that I ate? We should be grateful we are already parents to a healthy child. I really liked Harry as a name. Why is her baby growing just fine? Why me? Maybe it was stress… and the list goes on.”

Bickmore explained that all women experience the emotional pain differently after a miscarriage, and that “there is no formula or rulebook for grief”.

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Carrie Bickmore revealed in June that she is currently pregnant with her third child. Image via Getty.

She did, however, share that after each of her miscarriages, she was left wishing she had confided in more people.

A very raw Monique Bowley speaks about miscarriage, grief, and how friends and family can help someone who is struggling.

Bickmore has a son Oliver, 11, from her marriage with late husband Greg Lange, and daughter Evie, 3, with partner Chris Walker.

Last month on Instagram, The Project host told her followers that during her current pregnancy she is suffering horrible morning sickness.

"Morning sickness, I thought it would have past by now but it's not going away. Why the hell is it called morning sickness when it can be 24/7! Relentless" she captioned one of her photos.

"If I am hungry I feel sick, if I eat I feel sick, if I sleep I feel sick," she added.

If you, or someone you know is struggling with pregnancy loss or depression, contact PANDA on 1300 726 306.

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