I spent the early days of 2014 on holiday, on the west coast of Australia. It was perfect weather, and we spent most of our time either in the pool or at the beach.
But I was rarely thinking about how lucky we were to have such gorgeous weather. I wasn’t really focused on the cider, or the laughs, or the beach volleyball, or the inflatable pool toys we brought along. I paid little attention to how beautifully clear the water of the ocean was, or how fun it was to have such a big group of friends in one place.
I mostly thought about my thighs. More specifically – the cellulite on the back of my thighs.
It’s covered up when I wear shorts and dresses and skirts, but bikinis? No chance. Cellulite on parade for everyone to see. And I hate it. Passionately.
It’s genetic cellulite. The kind that won’t bugger off, regardless of how much you exercise or how little body fat you have. I’ve tried firming creams and diets. I’ve tried losing weight and exercising like a maniac. I tried giving up sugar (apparently that zaps your cellulite). I even legitimately looked into liposuction with a girlfriend of mine. I KNOW.
Nothing worked. So for my summer holiday, I specifically invested in floaty kaftans that went down past my bum, and wore them everywhere. I walked behind people rather than in front of them when wearing my bikini. I was first in the pool – hard to see cellulite when in the water – and last out. I put shorts on when it was time to play beach volleyball.
Pathetic, right? After all – who even would have noticed the patches of cellulite if I hadn’t been so paranoid about hiding it? Who would have cared in the slightest? Probably no one. But I’ve spent a lifetime, even as a young kid, hating and hiding my wobbly bits. The extra rolls on my tummy, the extra padding on my bum. It’s not a practise that’s about to stop now.
And I know that I’m not alone. There wouldn’t be a diet industry if every woman readily accepted the parts of her body that were naturally destined to be “wobbly”. But just about every woman – with the exception of the very few, who, after a long process, love themselves just the way they are – has at least one part of her body that she’s unhappy with. Her bum. Her stomach. Her upper arms. Her chin.
A recent article from the Daily Mail made me especially aware of this. The article is called, “Tricks we use to hide our wobbly bits, by four VERY brave women,” and features pictures of four women in their underwear, describing what they hate about their bodies and what they do to make themselves look skinnier.