As I prepare to return to the workforce after 15 months of looking after my two boys I am torn in two. One side of me is terrified of the potential negative affects that my absence will bring, the other is excited to be going back out in to the world and dealing with adults every day. A third side is the constant guilt that seems to sit in the pit of my stomach whatever I do.
My guilt is mainly based on the conundrum most Mums face at one time or another that is, “Are working Mums sub-standard to stay-at-home ones?” Society seems to be split down the middle on this, and each side passionately highlights the pros of their view. For me despite Motherhood being the most rewarding, fascinating and important work I have done to date, I need to maintain a sense of purpose outside of being a Mum and housewife. I also need a break from the relentless intensity of Motherhood. But does that mean I am being selfish and shirking my primary responsibility to my children?