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"There's an unwritten rule." I feel ashamed that I'm still breastfeeding my toddler.

I have a confession to make: I’m still breastfeeding my 23-month-old boy. 

Some of you might be wondering what the big deal is. And some of you might be judging me right now. 

I’ve found that people have strong opinions about breastfeeding a toddler. In my experience, it seems around 12 months old is the cut-off date for when it’s socially acceptable to breastfeed a child. After that, I’ve noticed that some people can get a little weirded out. 

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I definitely felt pressure to stop at 12 months. This came from various sources: my mum, my preconceived idea of when I thought I might stop, and because every mum I know quit breastfeeding at around 12 months or earlier. It felt like an unwritten rule. 

I don’t know anyone in my close circle, or even in my wider circle, who has breastfed for this long. My three sister-in-laws breastfed until their babies were around 12 months. And all the mums I know in my mother’s group also stopped breastfeeding around 12 months or earlier.

I’ve hidden the fact I’m still breastfeeding from my family, friends and even strangers.

I was in a beauty salon the other day and needed to disclose that I was breastfeeding. "How old is your baby?", the young beautician asked. Instead of answering "23 months" or "almost two", I found myself saying, "he’s one." I thought it sounded more acceptable.


She said that if she were breastfeeding, she’d stop once the baby started getting teeth as that would freak her out. Then she asked me how much longer I might breastfeed for. 

No one has ever said, "Oh you’re still breastfeeding? That’s great." Instead, everyone asks me when I’m going to stop. In the past, my mum has said that breastfeeding is not all it’s cracked up to be. And she’s asked me a few times when I’m going to quit. 

The truth is, I don’t know. I didn’t think I’d be breastfeeding this long. My boy enjoys it. I like the closeness too, and that he’s getting extra nutrients. So we’ve kept going. 

Now he’s older, I only feed him once a day, before bed in the quiet privacy of his bedroom. 

I’ve also hidden breastfeeding from my mother-in-law. It’s easy enough to hide. When we stay over, I just say I’m going to put him to bed. She doesn’t need to know that involves him drinking breast milk. 

A while ago when I did mention it, she was surprised he was still having breast milk. In her time, she said, they stopped breastfeeding at around four months. So anything past that is strange to her.

Both my mum and mother-in-law have said similar things, "Give him a bottle, give him cow’s milk," they urged. I understand cow’s milk is nutritious and perfectly fine to give to a toddler. 

And yes, sometimes I do give him some cow’s milk during the day. But I choose to also give him human milk made for him.

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Even my husband thinks the breastfeeding has gone on too long. "You need to think about stopping soon," he says. 


But why? I like that I’m still able to provide our son with a nutritious drink and boost his immune system. Isn’t that a good thing?

And let me say this: I’m not about making anybody feel bad if they couldn’t breastfeed or didn't want to. Or if they wanted to stop at 12 months or earlier - goodness, no. 

I totally get that everyone has their own reasons for stopping. Whether it’s returning to work, mastitis, latching problems, or worrying you’re not making enough milk.

Whatever it is, being a mum is hard and there are plenty of good reasons women quit breastfeeding. And that’s okay. All I’m saying is that like we shouldn’t judge women for stopping breastfeeding, we also shouldn’t judge them for continuing.

I’m not saying I'm special for still breastfeeding. I’m saying I feel like an outsider; a weirdo; a freak. Like it’s not normal.

I’m sure there are women still breastfeeding when their bub is older, I just don’t know any. So now I’m at the point where I don’t talk about it.

But it would be great if I didn’t feel like I have to hide this. I believe the only way for this to change is if it's normalised for women to breastfeed toddlers - but for that to happen more women would need to do it. 

I wish there was more support and education around the topic. And ultimately, I wish I didn’t feel so ashamed about breastfeeding an almost two-year-old.

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