I spent the better part of today sitting across from a fellow survivor (whom I met through my blog) in a hipster little cafe on the outskirts of our city, and as conversations often do, we gravitated to discussing anxiety, something we have a lot of experience with. One of the things we got to talking about was how so many people don’t talk about the too regular and agonising visits to the toilet.
I spent the last two days, thinking I had caught a bug off of one of the kids, I was nauseous, spending more time on the toilet than usual, I even cancelled a dinner at a friend’s place because I thought I really was sick. I also felt tired and in general off, the more I sat with it, the more I realised it was actually anxiety because by the end of the day it had calmed down and ramped right back up this morning and it started all over again.
We all do number’s 2’s, poop, take dumps or defecate most days right? And we all know it, we live among those that dump yet we kinda pretend we don’t, there's some shame somewhere there surrounding adult pooping.
But you know they’re “walking around like regular people. They don’t see each other. They only see what they want to see. They don’t know they’ve been pooping too”.…. -‘The sixth sense’
So let’s talk about poop.
If there was one thing more irritating about some of the anxiety symptoms other than anxiety itself, is the diarrhoea that comes as an accompanying symptom, a symptom that is also thought to be a sign of anxiety.
There are a few reasons diarrhoea is one of the most annoying symptoms, that those living with anxiety might face every day:
- It can give you sometimes all day/all night relentless diarrhoea. Not always but often can. And dumping a lot of times a day really makes you feel pretty average and just fed up.
- It’s really hard to spell, I can not even tell you the amount of ways I have tried to spell D-I-A- ummmm– _R-E-A-H, yes that's it, diarearh? Far out… man, how do you spell this word again. Sometimes I spell it so badly that even Dr.Google sometimes has no idea what I’m spelling and has zero suggestions.
- The way it effects your body’s gastrointestinal tract means it causes bloating, discomfort and cramps just like you’re on your period, except that you’re not….yeah, that seems fair. No more really needs to be said on how frustrating that is for a woman.
Mia Freedman on her love for routine on I Don't Know How She Does It.