In an interview with Chezzi Denyer on the Mum Stories podcast, Keller discussed her issues falling pregnant in the context of how it influenced her parenting. Keller fell pregnant with her first child, now 17-year-old Liam, when she was 39.
“The mother I pictured myself to be isn’t necessarily the mother I am,” Keller, who also has a son, Jack, said.
“I thought I would love reading stories at night time and pushing children on swings; I am not good at that stuff. I think I’m a good mother but I’m not mumsy in that way. I didn’t feel maternal.
“When you’re told you can’t [fall pregnant] it becomes something quite different. I’d been set a task – three years of IVF and I kept failing. I became more desperate the longer it went on.”
After three years of trying, Keller fell pregnant in 2000 during the Sydney Olympics, telling Denyer she vividly remembers starting to bleed and thinking she must be miscarrying.