You guys, what is giving birth like?
I have a recurring nightmare.
Every few months, it jolts me awake, and I find myself lathered in a nervous sweat.
That nightmare is about giving birth.
Like really panic.
I. Wanted. Answers. I wanted to know HOW much it hurts. I wanted to know if part of you, just a tiny little bit, resents your child for the pain they put you through. I wanted to know if that thing happened with the tearing of the bit between your you-know-what and your you-know-what.
I interviewed three experts in the office, within earshot of a colleague who is about to have her first baby (…sorry).
So, what does it feel like?
Like having your fingers chopped off, one by one.
Somehow, I don’t think I’ve had the last of those nightmares.