I lost my best friend the day I lost my husband. My ex & I spilt up over 6 years ago & my best friend of 20+ years “took his side”. When deciding to leave my husband I consoled myself that Id have my best friend to support me. Her betrayal was worse than his. I’ve never gotten over it. The shock & grief I felt & still feel at the loss breaks my heart. I have a better understanding of her choice, if she could convince herself the break up was my fault then she wouldn’t have to look hard at her own marriage. I am grateful I don’t have her toxicity in my life but I do miss the friendship we used to have.