I’m an unwanted parent. Yes there are two sides to every story and ours is long, painful and complicated but whilst I have worked hard on recognising, accepting and working in my faults, my daughter is happy to continue to live like I don’t exist. Many of my mistakes were a product of my childhood and the way I grew up, I was never abusive in any way just overprotective and went the wrong way about trying to help! I have learnt, grown and changed so much for the better but my estranged child hates me, my grandchild hates me and no matter what, the broken heart never heals.
My daughter decided just over 2 years ago that after everything we had been through in life counted for nothing as she cut me off. She won’t allow me to see my granddaughter and she did everything she could to destroy me. To this day she refuses to even discuss whatever her issues are. I had a horrible relationship with my female parent as she advised me early in life she wished she’d never had me and I ruin her life so I always made sure my daughter and granddaughter were loved and given everything I had.
I miss them so much and the hole their loss has left in my heart never stops aching. Mother’s Day for me is torture.