That story took me almost 30mins to read..I cried my eyes out but found myself in hysterics!! I thought my thoughts had just jumped out of my head and for the 1st time i was able to articulate what I feel and how I have never been able to say it out loud without looking *exactly* CRAZY!!!!!!!!!! I know my thoughts aren't me...I know I don't want to actually harm myself to the point of no return...but somehow right in this very moment I must have this...today I had these very thoughts...the worthlessness I feel about myself today has been really hard but I know it has to be this!!!!!! Thank u, thank u, thank u!!!!