At first I put it down to “this is what losing your virginity feels like.” Makes sense.
A few times later? Still getting used to it.
Hundreds of times later? Maybe this is just what it is meant to feel like.
How to have better sex. Post continues below.
I’m 18 years old and up until now, I’ve thought that young women and my friendship circle in particular, were strong, sexually-liberated women. Sure, we talk about sex, but we don’t talk about the discomfort or that it’s not quite what we expected it to be. What’s sexy about that?
So I went on, pretending sex was great despite coming out feeling battered, bruised, and evermore disinterested in my wonderful boyfriend.
It was only when I saw a psychologist that I received any indication something worse may be going on. The shock on her face threw me off. I found myself explaining, “oh no, it’s not excruciating, just uncomfortable at times…” but it was enough to encourage me to see a doctor.
Now taking this step was by no means easy. Not only did I cringe at the thought of anything going near my vagina, I was really not looking forward to spilling my sex problems to a GP. “It’s for the best,” I reminded myself, before taking a step into my GP for the follow-up appointment.
My usual doctor was away, so I was sent to a different male doctor to receive my test results and also discuss a change of birth control in the hopes of fixing my mood.
I sat down in the chair and began with this issue, hoping to ease into the session.
“Why would you want to change birth control?” he asked bluntly.
“Uh, as I was saying I just think it’s changing my mood and I thought it might help if I swapped…” I tried to explain.
“No no no, that’s bullshit. I don’t know who’s telling you that. Birth control is good for one thing and that’s preventing pregnancy. You need to diet and exercise if you want to change your mood. It’s got nothing to do with your birth control. Changing your dosage will increase your risk of blood clots (fair call), breast cancer – I think, (less of a fair call) and people on birth control have a higher risk of getting STI’s – but maybe that’s just because they think they can sleep around with anyone,” he laughed… at me, not with me.