In February, Nikki Phillips joined a long list of celebrities to announce they were expecting.
It was a joyful moment for the model, TV presenter and blogger who, after being diagnosed and treated for stage three cervical cancer in 2009, worried it might never happen for her and her jewellery designer husband, Dane Rumble.
“It’s no Beyonce post,” she joked on Instagram, “but our best adventure yet is on its way.”
‘Baby Phillips Rumble’ is due in early July, and while the excitement of his parents’ pregnancy announcement was palpable, it also masked a lot of heartache and worry going on behind the scenes.
It’s no Beyonce post… but our best adventure yet is on it’s way. Baby Phillips Rumble is due early July and we are beyond excited, slightly terrified but uttlery blessed. We can not wait to meet our little miracle. I’ve always dreamed of being a mother, but never knew it could be… read about our journey in the coming weeks on my blog #19weeks #pregnant #babyphillipsrumble
In a blog post, Phillips has revealed it took two years of trying and three miscarriages before she finally fell pregnant with her little boy.
The 34-year-old, who is currently at 30 weeks, describes the surreal feeling of conceiving after reading countless “miracle stories” from women she admires for whom it seemingly happened at the “drop of a hat”:
“After two years of trying and three miscarriages, I thought it was never meant to happen for us and also couldn’t help think, ‘What is wrong with me?’
“But pregnancy is the hardest race of all and if miscarriages are so common, why does no one talk about it?”
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Phillips says she initially fell pregnant easily, giving her confidence her body wasn’t “broken”, but miscarried after just nine weeks.
“In and out of emergency, it was a frightening and alarming experience. But once we picked ourselves up, six months later [we] tried again,” she writes.