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The woman whose baby was cut from her womb "yearns" for her lost child.

The Colorado woman whose seven-month-old foetus was cut from her womb in a brutal attack has spoken about the experience of losing her child.

In March last year Michelle Wilkins had been busily preparing for life with a newborn when she was forced to confront life having lost one.

“I just felt her presence so strongly,” told People magazine about the first time she held her daughter’s lifeless body.

“It was really bittersweet because I could feel her and I could sense her but I didn’t get to hold her like a normal mother and that is heartbreaking.

“I got to dress her, read to her and sing to her.”

Wilkins was at the house of Dynel Lane, a woman she had met on Craigslist, to pick up second-hand baby clothes when she was attacked.

Lane stabbed and choked her until she lost conciousness, then proceeded to cut her unborn baby from her womb.

She had been planning to name the girl Aurora.

Michelle Wilkins answers questions about the day she met Dynel Lane in court:

Video via 7 News Denver

Wilkins says she panicked when she woke up in hospital the next morning.

“I was trying really hard to keep calm but as the minutes ticked by and the memories started trickling back, I really started to panic,” she said.

“The whole time it’s dawning on me and getting closer and closer to the real possibility, or the real probability, that Aurora was not alive.”

Her partner Dan was the one who broke the news to her.

“The next five days at the hospital were awful,” she recalled.

“We supported each other. We took turns holding each other and asking the question why. The other would always answer that there was no answer to that.”

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In the weeks before they had moved into a “cozy” two-bedroom house and held a baby shower.

Wilkins said it was difficult to grieve until she had physically recovered from the attack.

Similarly, she recalls the moment in court, hearing Dyntel’s confession “where anger woke up.”

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Michelle Wilkins testifying in court. Image: GoFundMe

“I don’t mean anger like blinding or all consuming because I still maintain a perspective of her humanity, my humanity, and how we are connected by that,” she said.

“But we also make choices which have consequences and in her case those consequences caused a lot of pain.”

A fundraising page was set up for Wilkins during her recovery and she has  finally begun making plans for the future.

She is doing pottery classes and says she hopes to open an organic farm and healing centre, but it isn’t easy.

“There are moments of definitely yearning for Aurora,” she finished.

“I can speak for Dan and I both when I say that.”

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