Warning: this post is NSFW.
Being a porn star means that I often have to face up to being stereotyped. As a porn star, I’m often considered the ‘good time’ girl, the wild one, who is always up to party, to get loose, to cause trouble, the one that will steal your man.
For the most part, my life doesn’t resemble anything like that stereotype and so I often get to go under the radar, but there are certain situations where I stumble close to the stereotype and end up some unique experiences.
Nightclubs are a normal part of our young party lives, where we can go to drink, party with our friends, pick up or to get lost in a sea of strangers on the dance floors. But when society sees you as ‘the girl that’s up for anything’, night clubbing takes on a whole new flavour.
Whenever I enter a nightclub, it seems that there is always a fan. Often just one fan, but I get to see just how quickly word spreads.
I will enter with friends, go about the usual ritual of hitting the bar for our first round, sussing out the dance floor and picking our spot, just as anyone would do. And then the double takes begin.
“You look so familiar, do I know you?” one guy asks.
“Oh I get that a lot, I look like Renee Zellweger, we don’t know each other,” I respond with my standard line.
He walks away with that confused look. Then the phone comes out. These days with the Internet being in all our pockets, I can’t hide for long. A quick scroll through social media or Google brings up hundreds of my photos.
“Hey yeah I do know you. You’re Madison. I love your work, can I have a photo?” the guys asks again.
Of course I oblige, I feel it’s part of my job putting myself out there. I even experience that myself having my own collection of my photos with my own favourite idols, performers.
But then it starts. I have literally sat in nightclubs with my friends and watched the Mexican wave of phones being pulled out of pockets, with inquisitive looks.
I’ve been in bathroom stalls where I’ve overheard women whisper “that blonde in the blue dress out there, yeah she’s some porn star apparently.”
Now I’m not going to lie, this has led to some amazing nights. Being naturally shy, it’s great having people approach me feeling they already know me. Getting to meet so many more people than I normally would, has certainly been fun.
But living a stigmatised life means that it’s not all roses and adoration.
There was one night when I was at a nightclub in Kings Cross, there was a bucks party happening that night. I had already done the photos with a porn star thing for them and wished them a happy night. I was on the dance floor (I’m almost always the dance floor) and the bucks were dancing around trying to entice me into dirty dancing with them.
I was doing my usual politely pretending not to notice them and getting on with my thing, when they literally picked me up and started to carry me off to a corner. In my mind, I think they thought it would be funny but luckily my friend got the bouncer so that was sorted and I was fine.