We’re counting down from 20 to 1, the most popular posts on Mamamia in 2012 and coming in at number 15 is this heart wrenching post from writer Lucy Ormonde.
We were shocked by how many readers related to Lucy’s loneliness after reading this post and so gratified by those who reached out to Lucy and others in friendship.
Here at Mamamia Headquarters, we’ve also seen what a difference a few months can make. Lucy is happier than we’ve ever seen her, well settled into life in Sydney and a joy to have in the office.
“Everyone on my speed dial list lives in another state”, by LUCY ORMONDE
About a month ago I was alone. And I was struggling.
I found out I needed to have a small operation on my back, and when I couldn’t get an appointment in Sydney (where I live) I decided to travel back to Melbourne (where I’m from.) I’ll usually use any excuse to get back to my ‘hood, but this time it made sense – mum would be able to drive me to and from the appointment and the clinic I’d go to already had my records on file.
The operation itself was no big deal. I’d never had anything cut into me before, but it was over in less than an hour and in the nurse’s own words, I was “almost too relaxed”.
But it was what happened after that shook me.
I spent the next couple of days hanging out at Mum’s place, lying on my stomach with the TV remote, a stack of books and my laptop within reach. Mum fussed over me (like all mothers do).
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I had lived in South East Queensland for most of my life (few years in Sydney as a child) when I moved to London for a year. Now that was homesickness. I knew no-one at all save for a couple of friends who holidayed for a month or so. I felt so alone and naive in a culture that was surprisingly hard to relate to. The weather was so different (I'm from the beach) and I struggled to make friends.
I found myself crying all the time and on skype constantly waiting for someone from Aus to log on. As a result of my intense loneliness, I got involved with a bad guy just because he paid me some attention. It was so nice to feel wanted in a city that made me feel so small.
Anyway, long story short - I realised what a shit situation I was in and moved back to Brisbane. It was the best decision of my life. Although there are far better work opportunities for me in London and you're far better situated for travel, it doesn't matter because if you're unhappy and lonely then you will make poor life choices.
The day I stepped off the plane into Brisbane International is one of the best days of my life. I have no regrets about moving back here. I AM SO HAPPY.
This is my fifth city, second as an adult. Maybe it's because I moved around loads as a kid (I'm up to house number 14 baby!) and went to 4 schools and studied at three unis... But when I moved out to Sydney earlier this year, I was only lonely for about a month. I put myself out there and made friends i no time!
I've had my fair share of crises this year, including a bout of influenza where I couldn't even shower myself (I had three close female friends in Sydney to call on for help) and when I lost my job, a whole army picked me up and made everything ok again.
I dunno... I've moved so often so I guess the whole 'starting again' comes so naturally to me. (Please note I moved from Perth, so my mum is a 5 hour flight away if anything bad happens. She was 20 hours away from me when I landed myself in hospital while living in the USA - I dealt, I had close friends I made there too!)
It's important to put yourself out there, my current best friend I met here when she sold me a pair of shoes (no jokes) and I met some amazing people by going to networking events and striking up conversations with randoms. It'll happen for you too :) you'll have the most friends in no time!