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Twelve days ago I lost my dad to Coronavirus and yesterday I said goodbye to my 20s. Timing, eh?
At first glance, these two milestones seem very much at odds with each other – how can I selfishly celebrate 30 years of life when I’m not done grieving my dad’s death? After all, if not for him, I wouldn’t have a life to celebrate. And what do you do when the first person who saw you on your actual birthday can’t be there to wish you a happy one?
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