I’m five months sober and I still get cringeworthy flashbacks from my life as a binge drinker and then alcoholic.
No matter what the flashbacks are, or when the flashbacks were from, the one thing that they always share is that they make me cringe. They make me shudder, and they make me feel like sh*t.
Alcoholism is that self-perpetuating problem. You start drinking, you make a fool of yourself or do something stupid, and then the only way to block out that memory is to drink again. The cycle continues, and the cycle sucks. Recently, I’ve started to reflect back about drinking with technology, and they’re some of the worst memories.
The one thing worse than seeing a drunk person, is seeing a drunk use a phone or social media. This happened to me in the worst possible away about 10 years ago – when I went out drinking with my brother and his friends.
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It was a strange thing to go out drinking with them, because generally I did my own thing, but on this particular night, I did. I can’t remember if I went out with them to begin with, or met them out when my friends had ‘finished’ for the night. Still to this day I cannot remember the details because I blacked out, but I do remember that I somehow managed to end up in a toilet stall with one of his friends. I can’t remember what we did in there, but it clearly wasn’t totally innocent.