How to deal with being told, “I don’t like you.”

It was grade four.

Somehow, through the ebb and flow of primary school politics, I had made myself an enemy. Out of nowhere, she had decided to take a grudge against me, and pursue it passionately.

It bothered me for a few good weeks, but after careful consideration, I decided that in fact it did not suit me to have an enemy. One day, when our teacher was out of the room, I came at her with a 2B pencil, and that was that.

Some 20 years later, the same thing has happened – I have unwittingly made an enemy, with no idea how or why. But this time I am unsure it is a situation that is able to be resolved with a pencil.

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Let me paint the scene.

It was a Saturday night, at the house of one of my partner’s friends; one of his buddies from high school.

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My boyfriend had retired early and was already back home in bed. The owner of the house (who, truth be told, had always been a little sour on me) decided that – in catching me solo – this was his opportunity to have a vent.

In front of a handful of our friends, he let it all hang out: Not only pointing out that indeed, he did not like me – but also a fairly strenuous account of why he didn’t like me.

I won’t repeat his exact words, but he was essentially calling me arrogant, self-obsessed, with an inflated ego. He only liked ‘humble’ people, he said. And that wasn’t me.

Mean, strange insults that I truly have never been accused of in my life. The group fell quiet, and I all of the sudden felt the biggest imposter there.

Mortified, I packed my things and left.

48 hours later and I am still stinging from the conversation. Like all those years ago at primary school, it was the shock and surprise of a near-stranger harbouring such an ardent dislike for me that hurt the most.

As a writer, a personal attack on my character is nothing new – geez, take ten minutes to peruse the ‘comments’ section on any of my work, and you’ll see – but from someone who I thought was a friend? Horrifying.

And now, as the recovery begins, I am asking myself: how do you deal with being told, “I don’t like you”?

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Shy and retiring has never really been my game.

My heart and my head have taken on very different stances on the topic: my head is adamant to brush it off. “He’s just intimidated by you,” the old grey matter declares, “He’s known for causing drama.”

My heart, however, isn’t quite so steely. “Maybe all of those things he said about you are true,” it says in a quiet voice, “Maybe none of those people like you.”

As a loud and bolshie blonde, I’ve had my fair share of haters. I’m opinionated. I’m a little strange. It would be ridiculous to think, at 27, I haven’t encountered people who don’t like me before.

But they have all had the good grace and social etiquette to not declare it so openly – their dislike was evident by their attitude, their distance, or their unwillingness to engage. And so you move forward, perhaps feeling a little haughty, perhaps bristling a little – but hey, we’re adults after all.

We can’t like everyone.

And yet, it is this very state of being – you know, ‘adulthood’ – that is preventing me from quite recovering. In grade four, being disliked was simply an inconvenience and resolved with a minor pencil attack to the cheek. (Yes, I know: insane.)

As an adult however; I am expected to simply take the blow, lick my wounds, and move on. But you know what? I don’t want to. (Post continues after video)

I am angry, and with good reason.

I was embarrassed in front of people I know. I was attacked in the absence of my boyfriend, his good friend. But the person I am most angry at is myself – rather than tell him where to shove it, I slinked out the door with my tail between my legs and have been stinging ever since.

It’s a bit of a taboo, facing up to our haters. It’s a fact we all like to ignore: that there are people in this world who, regardless of how hard we try, will not like us. Ever.

As Dita Von Teese so wisely said, “You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be somebody who hates peaches.”

Tossing my choices up in the air, I have decided to look past the most appealing options – naming and shaming, egging his house, attacking him with a pencil – and opting instead for the less attractive option… forgiveness.

I am not giving his dislike for me another thought, and why would I? Actively holding onto his negativity does not help me grow, not in the slightest.

So here’s the advice I’m giving myself: forgive him.

The tug-o-war that’s going on between us (in his mind, anyway) can only continue for as long as I’m hanging on to one end. So I’m dropping it and walking away…

Walkin’ away with sunglasses on, Beyonce’s ‘Formation’ on loud, and a strut that says:

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