Actress and singer Brie Larson has shared a heartbreaking throwback photo to a time when she felt “flashes of embarrassment” appearing on a red carpet. She said, “I worried I was too fat, too ugly, too depressingly banal to be honored.”
This year, she won the Academy Award for Best Actress for her portrayal of Joy ‘Ma’ Newsome in Room, but only three years ago, she was largely unknown, attending the Maui Film Festival wearing a dress she picked from her own wardrobe.
In her latest Instagram post, Larson writes, “It shocked me to find this photo because I remember the day so well.”
It shocked me to find this photo because I remember the day so well. I was respected enough to be honored at the Maui Film Festival – but not known enough to have a stylist or “glam squad”. I found this Madewell dress in my closet. The most I knew how to do for grooming was pin half of it back and blink on a few coats of mascara. Before we went to the ceremony I felt flashes of embarrassment – I worried I was too fat, too ugly, too depressingly banal to be honored. I cringed to take photos. But today I see this moment and feel only love for myself. There is nothing wrong with this person. She is honest and beautiful and committed to showing up for this life. I wish I saw myself then as I see myself now. There is no need to waste your time working to be anything other than you. So hey, #tbt – thank you for the chance to honor all the hilarious ways we didn’t know ourselves upon first meeting, and all the exciting new ways we get to know ourselves while we keep living.