"What does it take to get a second chance"? Andrew Chan reflects on his life.

In what may be the last week of his life Andrew Chan has a powerful message for all Australians.

His video diary, shown last night on the Seven Network’s Sunday Night showed the raw emotions of a young man in a place that most of us couldn’t ever imagine – on the brink of losing his life.

“Um my name is Andrew Chan. ” he said in the video diary just hours after he watched six other inmates be taken for execution by firing squad on January 18.

“It is a day, pretty much a few hours after the execution, six innocent lives…… I guess what runs through my head is how precious life really is, that all we can do about the moment we live for, I guess sometimes you kind of gotta think what does it take to get a second chance?

“People get second chances within their lives on the outside but how much can you get when you’re a convicted criminal?”

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Andrew Chan video diary ( Source: Sunday Night)

His diary was as heartbreaking as a recent letter Chan wrote to his younger self, which featured in a documentary, Dear Me: The Dangers of Drugs, showing the regrets that Chan has about his life, which he says “was wasted.”

In his letter his powerful message for all Australians is “What you choose today will make what you become tomorrow.”


“Don’t do it.”

“Don’t do it”.

In the six page letter to his 15-year old self Andrew Chan pleads with young people not to follow his path.

I don’t know what choices you guys are making, however, if anything, I would want you guys to remember is, ‘Is it worth it?’”

“You are still young and you have some serious decisions to make in your life. What you choose today will make what you become tomorrow.

“If you want to be a thug and a big bad wolf, I’ll see you soon inside.

“But for those that want to do something in life, I’d like you guys to see how important it is to put your head down and study hard.”

“If you want to be a thug and a big bad wolf, I’ll see you soon inside.”

Chan was arrested along with eight other Australians in 2005 for attempting to smuggle 8.3kg of heroin into Australia from Thailand. He was the ringleader of the plot and was sentenced to death. He has been behind bars at Kerobokan prison in Bali since April 17, 2005.

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Last Wednesday Chan was taken, along with Myuran Sukumaran to Nusa Kambangan and Besi prison where they wait in limbo for their execution date.

The trailer for the documentary Dear Me, The Dangers of Drugs. (Post continues after this video.)

He begins the letter saying:

“Dear Me, when you are older you will be in a Bali prison and you will be executed. This happened to you because you thought taking drugs was cool. Your drug taking made you think that it was OK to import drugs and make money from this. Your family and friends are heart broken and your life will be ended by a firing squad. Underneath you are not a bad person but drugs makes you different. My name is Andrew Chan.”

Chan pleads with teenagers not to follow his path.

“At the end of the day, I’m only 29 years old and, the truth is, I might not be able to see my 30th birthday. How many of you want to follow in my footsteps? And I hope these words will penetrate through your minds and in your hearts and that most of you, if not all of you, will achieve more than I ever did,”

“I have missed weddings, funerals, just the simple presence of my family. The hurt and pain that I don’t just put onto myself but my family is agonising. A simple touch such as a hug is not possible for a condemned man like me.

“I have nothing but an iron bar to hug rather than to be embraced by those I love and who I miss. Most likely, I won’t have the chance to see such things such as the birth of my first child, let alone have a child. My life is a perfect example of an absolute waste.

That does not have to be for you.”

Andrew Chan’s parents.

The director of Dear Me, Malinda Rutter, told News Limited that Andrew Chan is a different person to the teenager who was arrested.

“They realise their mistakes and where they slipped through the cracks and they’ve worked hard to turn their lives around,”.

“I’m proud to call Andrew my friend.” She said.

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“He was a really troubled kid and he wanted to be tougher and bigger than the other kids,” she said.

He says in the film “I got mixed up with drugs at a pretty young age and by the time I was 15 I was merged into the scene,”

“I have done things which I am not proud of in my life and I made some pretty stupid decisions.

“I’m a person to say this because all you have to do is type me up on Google and I’m sure you get the results ‘death row’.”.

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