By Barbara Miller
The thought of swapping a modest life in a caravan park for a nursing home fills Ellen Bucello with dread.
“I couldn’t cope with it,” she said.
The 65-year-old who lives on the New South Wales Central Coast feels supported by her neighbours, many of them ageing too, and she enjoys her independence.
But spinal problems and worsening arthritis mean she could soon have to leave her mobile home.
“I worry about being locked in cupboards, I worry about being, and I know that it doesn’t happen anymore, but I worry about being tied to a bed, being restrained,” she said.
“I worry about not being cared for, I worry about not being loved.”
Those fears stem from a childhood spent in state care.
Ms Bucello said she was subjected to severe neglect and abuse.
One of her saddest memories is having to spend three nights on the front porch, banished there by a foster mother.
“I was told that I was nothing but a dog, that you will eat like a dog and you will sleep like a dog,” Ms Bucello said.
“She tied my hands behind my back and I had to even eat like a dog out of the bowl.”
Later there was sexual abuse too.
Ellen Bucello is one of 700 people who grew up in care who took part in a two-year national study by the University of NSW.
The report, “No Child Should Grow up Like this: Identifying long-term outcomes of Forgotten Australians, Child Migrants and the Stolen Generations”, is being released today.
It is the largest independent study to date on the impact of institutional care.
The report recommends that those who grew up in care be given special needs status and access to tailored services in old age, such as unlimited counselling and in home care where possible.
“They have certain unique needs arising from an extended period of their childhood in institutional and other forms of care, where their developmental outcomes and their developmental needs were compromised,” lead researcher Professor Elizabeth Fernandez said.