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Ada Nicodemou: "I can never be completely happy again."

Ada lost her son Harrison nine months ago.

Ada Nicodemou – actress, mother, wife and one of the strongest people to come out of Summer Bay – has talked about her pain at losing her son Harrison nine months ago.

Harrison was stillborn and this the first time Ada has spoken publically about the loss.

The Home and Away actress, 38, opened up to New Idea magazine about the pain.

“We will never be the same people we were, and I hate that,” Nicodemou said.

“How do you cope with this? How do you cope? For both of us, what’s upsetting is that this is part of our story now. It’s something you never imagine. It’s just one of the most unnatural things you could ever go through.”

“It’s not that I will never be a complete person again, but I just wonder … How can I say? I just feel I can never be completely happy again because this has happened.”

Nicodemou and her husband, Chrys Xipolitas, have a two-year-old son called Johnas who was born through IVF, but Harrison was conceived naturally.

When she announced the pregnancy in 2014, Nicodemou said her and Xipolitas were lucky to conceive naturally.

“For it to happen so quickly after we struggled for so long last time is a really nice surprise and we feel really, really lucky,” she said at the time.

Nicodemou was believed to have been about eight months pregnant when she delivered Harrison stillborn on August 4 last year. In the months that followed, Nicodemou shared a tribute to her son on Instagram – a poem, titled ‘Never’ by K. Fugleberg, with a message thanking the public for their support.

For photos of Ada and her family, click through the gallery below.

If you’d like to read more about stillbirth, see below. 

Let’s get stillbirth, miscarriage and infant loss out in the open.

“Today, we remember the mothers whose children are not here.”

Some advice for the friends and family of Ada Nicodemou.

Top Comments

MeAgain 9 years ago

Glass half full Ada, not half empty! Count your blessings instead of saying you will never be happy again. Life is short.

Erin 9 years ago

Easier said than done surely.

sarah kate 9 years ago

Did you really just say that? I assume this has not happened to you. you can't choose to make grief go away. Her older son and any subsequent children don't replace Harrison. When u lose a child the glass is completely irrelevant. Its snashed in smithereens on the floor and you spend your life stepping barefoot on the broken pieces. How dare you deny her the chance to openly grieve her baby. It takes a lot of courage. And your comment is so cruel and careless.

MeAgain 9 years ago

Really? Well with all the tragedy in the world I find it hard to stomach anybody saying "I can never be truly happy again." I find it quite pathetic actually. Also, you have NO IDEA what I have been through in my life. I still choose to smile & be HAPPY.


Anna Erickson 9 years ago

You will never be the same Ada but you will be happy again... I lost a baby (our first) at 8 months of pregnancy 13 years ago. I will also never be the same, but I am happy. He would have wanted you to be happy, as I am sure my baby would have. One day it will come and surprise you - pure, good old style happiness. Then you will feel guilty for feeling happy... But it will get easier, and it will happen more often. The pain never really goes away, but you do get to out it in a box and only get it out when you feel strong enough to do so.