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Last night we watched Abbie Chatfield’s heart break in half on national television.
The Bachelor finale is always two parts joyful one part gut wrenching and this season it was Abbie’s turn to be turned away at the final hurdle.
“The only way I can describe this moment is complete and utter shock. I was numb,” the 23-year-old wrote on her Instagram last night after the finale aired.
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“I couldn’t and didn’t want to feel anything. I had felt for weeks that what Matt and I had was real and I trusted him wholeheartedly when he told me how he felt about me.”
In Abbie’s lengthy caption she describes forgetting that the cameras were even there to a point, that’s until Matt broke her heart right at the end.
“Hearing Matt say “my heart is with someone else” reminded me that we were filming and that Matt had to make a difficult decision and he did not see me in the way I saw him,” she wrote.
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The only way I can describe this moment is complete and utter shock. I was numb. I couldn’t and didn’t want to feel anything. I had felt for weeks that what Matt and I had was real and I trusted him wholeheartedly when he told me how he felt about me. From Hometowns, I forgot the cameras were there. It didn’t feel like we were filming a show at all, it felt like we had this real relationship built in a little bubble of “The Bachelor” and we would be out soon and able to live a normal life. Hearing Matt say “my heart is with someone else” reminded me that we were filming and that Matt had to make a difficult decision, and he did not see in me what I saw in him. I felt silly for ever imagining Matt would love me. It was like emotional whiplash. I was so confused and it felt like I was in a dystopian reality. The second the cameras turned off, I sobbed. I screamed. I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t think think this would be how we would end. I spent weeks crying about this relationship that had almost no closure. I still haven’t fully healed from my relationship with Matt, but I know he and the gorgeous woman he is with are happy, and that’s all that matters. #thebachelorau