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'My whole world collapsed.' Before her death, Caroline Flack wrote a message. She was told not to post it.

This post deals with suicide and might be triggering for some readers. 

The family of Caroline Flack have released a message she had written but never posted on social media just days before her death.

In the post, shared with local UK paper Eastern Daily Press, Flack writes about the trauma she felt after her arrest for allegedly assaulting her boyfriend Lewis Burton.

The former Love Island host was due to face court over the alleged December incident in early March, but died by suicide aged 40 on February 15.

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“Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed,” she wrote in the post, which she was advised not to post to social media.

“I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.”

Flack said she took responsibility for what happened that night, but the alleged incident was an accident.

“I’ve been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time,” she wrote. “But I am NOT a domestic abuser.”

She wrote that the reason she planned to share the post was because her family “can’t take anymore”.

“I’ve lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment.

“I can’t spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone… I’m not thinking about ‘how I’m going to get my career back’. I’m thinking about how I’m going to get mine and my family’s life back.”

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Floral tributes placed outside Caroline Flack's home in North London. Image: Getty.

While Flack's advisors told her not to post her message, her family told the Eastern Daily Press they wanted to release it.

"Carrie sent me this message at the end of January but was told not to post it by advisers but she so wanted to have her little voice heard," Flack's mother Chris told the paper.

"So many untruths were out there but this is how she felt and my family and I would like people to read her own words.

"Carrie was surrounded by love and friends but this was just too much for her."

Flack had hosted Love Island since it started in 2015 and was due to host the current series, however following her arrest, the seasoned presenter decided to step down from the hosting duties until further notice.

Her personal life was a favourite topic of British tabloids - one of which dubbed her Caroline Whack after her arrest - and Flack faced much public scrutiny online.

Love Island did not air on Saturday or Sunday following her death, but returned on Monday with a tribute to the former X Factor presenter and Strictly Come Dancing winner.

If you think you may be experiencing depression or another mental health problem, please contact your general practitioner. If you're based in Australia, please contact Lifeline 13 11 14 for support or beyondblue 1300 22 4636.

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