There’s one thing I find people don’t often hear about or speak about is what is life like after cancer treatment? What now?
It’s something I’m really struggling with at the moment. What should I be doing with myself now that my tests, scans and appointments are slowing down?
It’s been almost four and a half years since my first diagnosis with bowel cancer and almost one and a half years since my second diagnosis. The fact that the whole of 2017 was a write-off and that the beginning of 2018 was a little sketchy at times (and still is somewhat) is what makes life really hard to move forward.
While my life had stopped on many occasions, to have surgeries and undertake treatment, for everyone else around me, their lives continued as normal. There has been a huge loss of quality of life, I’ve missed milestones with the ones I love, and not being able to see my friends as much as I would like has put me out of the loop.
It’s overwhelming to try and play “catch-up”.
People don’t talk about it because it’s hard to articulate how difficult it is to get back into the real world once treatment has finished. Friends drop off, so you have to come to terms with the fact that the people you spent a lot of time with pre-cancer are no longer around.
But in saying that, because of cancer, new people have stepped into my life and I am so grateful for everyone that has reached out to me recently. I’ve formed new friendships and I am slowly starting some new beginnings.