Guys… I did something weird. And I need to talk about it.
You see, the last three Valentine’s Days have been a running joke with my friends.
I am always alone. And I swear it always rains. And people around me are always receiving obnoxiously large bunches of flowers that semi hit me in the head as they get delivered.
I speak to Mia Freedman and Monique Bowley about purchasing my Valentine’s Day date online. Post continues below…
And everyone is always posting bizarrely intimate declarations of love on Facebook when really they should just be saying them to each other. In person.
To put it in perspective, my last Valentine’s Day card read “Hope you’re feeling better soon”, accompanied by a disgusting chocolate flavoured protein bar my friend definitely just found at the bottom of their gym bag as they pulled up to my house.
And the saddest part is…..that I ate it, because I was a little bit hungry.
I’m 26 years old and haven’t been in a relationship for three years.
I feel the need to qualify that with “Oh – but I’m really happy”, and “I absolutely love my life”, which is true, but also completely irrelevant.
You can indeed live an extremely fulfilling life without a partner. But you can also be single, and sometimes, just a little bit, wish you weren’t.
About a month ago, I spoke on Mamamia Out Loud about feeling like somewhat of a feminist traitor.
I was the goddamn “modern woman” my ancestors fought for. I was satisfied in my career, surrounded by incredible friends, with a great relationship with my family. So why did I feel like something was missing?
Mia Freedman, Monique Bowley and I discuss the single status on Mamamia Out Loud. Post continues below.
So there and then I ‘confessed’. I was single and deep down I didn’t want to be anymore.
I wrote about how admitting you’re not altogether happy with your life is embarrassing.