Staring down at the stick there was no room for error.
We’d purchased the new fancy digital test to be sure. A quick trip to the supermarket. We pulled up home, I dashed to the bathroom and now the longest 3 minute wait of our lives.
We were both 20. I was at university and my partner an apprentice. This had not been part of our plan.
“Do you want me to look first?”
“No I’ll look. No, ok, you look then tell me. Ok, no let’s both look.”
We turned it over. I think he saw it before I did and he turned the stick around so I could read it myself. No doubt about it. ‘Pregnant.’
So many thoughts went through our heads at that moment but the one that sticks with me most was when we sat down, looked at each other and my adorable partner suddenly stood up and, part anxious, part excited, turned to me and wide eyed said “OMG I have to get a new car.”
The rest of the night is honestly a bit of a blur, but I can say that it was those fifteen minutes that changed the course of my life forever. It was such a big change in our lives, and a change that meant we had so many decisions to make.
Where would we live? What car would we drive? Would we both continue our careers paths?
Once the shock wore off and the excitement set in I remember thinking, while I was ready for the baby, I had no idea how we would cope financially. This baby would change everything. I was constantly worried about how we would pay for things. Obviously I would have to take time off work. And it was my first child, I’d want as much time as I could off, but I didn’t know if we could cope on one wage. I lost so much sleep in those early days worrying about money and all the big decisions we’d have to make.
Do we rent? Do we buy? One car or two? Would I stay home or go back to work? And all that aside – what about the baby itself? Who knew babies cost so much damn money? (Oh wait, probably every parent in the history of ever.)
This baby wasn’t just a lifestyle change it was a lifestyle overhaul – emotionally, physically, financially and even on our locality.