Content warning: This post deals with eating disorders, and may be triggering for some readers.
Much has been written in recent weeks about the ‘problematic,’ ‘dangerous,’ and ‘unrealistic’ portrayal of eating disorders in Netflix’s To The Bone.
The film, starring 28-year-old Lily Collins, who has been open about her own struggles with anorexia and bulimia, tells the story of 20-year-old Ellen, a college drop out whose family dynamics and past trauma appear to stand in the way of her complex road to recovery.
Ellen is extremely thin, and has been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. She has what her sister calls ‘calorie Aspergers’ where she can calculate the caloric value of food just by looking at it. Her bones protrude, her clothes are baggy. Her face is gaunt.
As someone with a background in eating disorders research, who has previously worked in a residential treatment centre for eating disorders, I was immediately unsettled by this premise.
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At age 54 I have been living with bulimia since I was 18. Like some, I was also anorexic. Some themes and rituals in this movie I saw in myself. I see myself as living with this for the rest of my life for I truly think it is an ongoing mind battle you struggle with. There is that constant need to feel loved and accepted but those fears that nobody will because in reality you don't accept or love yourself make you your own worst enemy. When you cannot control or deal with your world or your feelings you try to control the only thing you can...your body. It makes you feel strong and focused...on the wrong thing of course. ED lies to you. At first you get that control, the highs, the feeling your life is more in focus. You are focused in that little world that ED promised you that gets you through your life without having to deal with issues you can't define and can't control. Then ED takes over your life until you are locked in that prison and told by ED that you will never escape and nobody will ever want to visit you because you put yourself there and threw away the key. Well dang it....ED...you don't control me...I have more keys than you have prison cells. I get thrown in...I find that key...whatever it may be, and let myself free. After dealing with this for my entire adult life, I wish I could say I am cured. I have weeks now without purging...and ED is drowned out.. I refuse to listen to that voice. At times I relapse, but they are short lived and ED didn't make my life better..it made me sicker. I win....I will fight for my right to believe in myself and love and accept myself. Daily
I think the ending was perfect. As a person who is very close to someone with anorexia and watching her struggling everyday this ending was perfect. Because they never truly become someone that can eat like everyone else who doesn't think about food the way they do. It stays with them their whole life. The ending was showing us that she realised who was actually there to help her and from this she was going to try. Ellen will always be anorexic however it was how the movie ended to say that she was going to try and she accepted help.