Lately I have been having vivid dreams about having another baby. I’ve been dreaming of having another baby for years but lately they have seemed so real. I wake up thinking it’s real.
I feel incredibly sad when I realise that it’s not.
I gave my sub-conscious the benefit of the doubt and looked up the meaning of dreams about pregnancy and birth using an online dream interpreter. When I kept dreaming about my teeth falling out I discovered I was worried about money. When I kept dreaming about the ocean I found out I was thinking about a challenge.
Maybe dreaming about a baby, every single night for months, didn’t mean I wanted to try for another actual baby? It turns out that dreams about babies can mean you are creating something, anything new.
However after three years of back and forth I’m finally ready to admit that my repeated, vivid dreams about having another baby are about creating…a new baby, or at least trying to. I am 40, after all. The chance of me even falling pregnant are slim. The chance of miscarriage is high.
Like so many of my almost-40-year-old friends, I want to at least try.