Speaking on Sunday Night, the 41-year-old former model opened about the breast enlargements, which she calls the “biggest regret” of her life.
“When I do think of how they used to look. Like, I was just so ashamed of myself,” she said.
But after coming to the conclusion that her implants were affecting her health, Nicola had them removed in mid-2017.
“I didn’t actually like them. They were making me sick and essentially ageing me. So it just made perfect sense to me that they had to go,” she said.
“I’ve had to have a number of surgeries to correct ongoing complications. It’s been a painful, expensive process.”
In an Instagram post on Sunday morning, the former model admitted that while she has had her implants removed, she still experiences breast implant illness symptoms, including “tip to toe swelling”.
Feeling honoured to be able to share my own personal journey on @sundaynighton7 alongside inspirational women who also feel the importance of being open & honest about their experiences with breast implants & the very real consequences of such an invasive procedure! I let go of the guilt & the deep regret that I carried after naively choosing to pay someone to slice open my chest & insert two viral adjuvants inside of me, once I gratefully woke????up over a year ago after undergoing the very intricate en-bloc explant procedure of removing them. I’ve also let go of the reasons as to why I chose to drastically alter my body in the first place, because that’s just not my story anymore, as I perceive all of those occurrences transpired ‘for’ me, not ‘to’ me. The detoxification of the numerous toxic ingredients that when combined are called silicone is very real & ongoing! I do still periodically experience BII (breast implant illness) symptoms, particularly tip to toe swelling (inflammation). However, in every moment I’m actively growing new, neural pathways, that are endlessly rooted in unconditional love, trust & acceptance rather than the fear based belief systems that I accumulated & used as a form of protection in the past. I feel it’s important to express the fact that I blame no one, not even myself for my choices & I’m candidly communicating my perception of breast implants with the pure intent for us all to choose self love over judgement. In a world filled with so much wonder filled love & awe, yet so much undeniable, heartbreaking affliction too, may we all feel our innate & eternal connection to all life & evolve with graceful, passionate compassion for ourselves & others. ????by epic ensemble @flymyprettiesnz ❤️????
“I feel it’s important to express the fact that I blame no one, not even myself for my choices & I’m candidly communicating my perception of breast implants with the pure intent for us all to choose self love over judgement,” she wrote.