Having it all. The perfect family, job, house, car, friends, social life, and everything else. It’s something that everyone always seems to be working towards and it’s also what Mamamia reader Polly* is currently enjoying. But she can’t help feeling that there’s something wrong with the picture.
“I live an insanely blessed life. My husband and I have been together for 16 years and with each year that passes we find better ways to walk this life together, we have two healthy, happy, bright girls, the house of our dreams, I love my job where I get to work with my best friend and work hours that suit me as a mum, I have a best friend that speaks my language of love and friendship, my financial woes are simple solved by making myself stop buying dresses , I have a loving supportive family AND IN LAWS!! And I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been (and just so you know, I am sensing that bile just came to your mouth). Even as I write this my eyes dart over my shoulder…. I’m too blessed.
Without a doubt, not a day goes by when I don’t stop to be thankful for how fortunate I am, but I wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t admit sometimes it scares the crap out of me. I’ve had my struggles, motherhood crumbled me, but again I feel blessed to have been able to ‘rebuild’ myself.
Still I have the terrible feeling that the wolf is at the door. Friend’s lose parents / partners; are diagnosed with cancer; all sorts of tragedies happen – these people are just as worthy of the blessed life I have. I tell myself that that the best way I can honour what I have is to appreciate it, and I do. I just want to know if others anticipate misfortune before it arrives, even though we know what madness it is to do so.”
Do you find yourself living in the moment, or living in fear of what’s about to come?