Marnie struggled for years to become pregnant and her path to motherhood was anything but smooth.
“I met my partner Scott later in life and we were very conscious that we needed to start trying for a baby straight away.
“We began our first cycle of IVF after a year of trying and failing to fall naturally. I did a lot of research online around what I should be doing to be as fertile as possible and I began treating my body as if I was already pregnant.
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“I mostly gave up alcohol, I stopped eating certain foods, I started acupuncture and took every fertility herb and supplement available.”
After three years and seven failed rounds of IVF, Marnie made the difficult decision to quit her job and focus solely on getting pregnant.
“I was aware of my age and I was obsessed with wanting a baby. I decided over a period of six months to have a round of IVF every four weeks, without rest.
“My doctor and Scott were supportive and I survived by exercising and staying focussed, but it was isolating and utterly exhausting.
“Most of my friends had children by this point and the rollercoaster of emotions I experienced were awful. Friends would tell me they were pregnant at lunch and I would be happy for them, but I’d go and sit in the car afterwards and cry.”
Marnie eventually stopped telling people she was still doing IVF, when it all became too much.
“I constantly had to tell people it wasn’t working for us. It was too traumatic to watch their feelings of hope rise and fall like my own.