Like many homes Allie Casazza’s was filled to the brim with toys. Drawers spilling out with dolls. Stuff everywhere. Blocks and dump trucks. Puzzles and Barbies.
“A $150 light-up unicorn no one played with.”
“Bins overflowing with stuff.”
“I had this huge room in my house, dedicated to toys,” she told ABC News.
Allie and her four kids. Image supplied.
But it was making her stressed.
Allie, a mother of four from Arkansas in the US, says she was constantly cleaning it, putting stuff away, just to keep herself sane.
“I’d send the kids into the playroom and they’d dump out a few things. They’d be back moments later, saying they were bored and asking for snacks," she said.
She says every day she’d wait longing for naptime and bedtime.
“I didn’t enjoy [my kids]. They were a bother to me…I thought that was ‘just the way it was.'”
Allie says she wasn't enjoying motherhood. Image supplied.
One particularly stressful day, in a move that most of us can relate to, she locked herself in her bathroom while her kids, Bella, 7, Leland, 5, Hudson, 4, and Emmet, 2 were napping.
She knew it was time to work out exactly why she was so anxious.