How do I tell you that you have made a devastating mistake? How do I tell you that you married the wrong person?
I can’t find the words to tell you to leave him, just like I couldn’t find the resolve to even whisper the slightest ‘no’ when you asked if you were doing the right thing the week before your wedding.
I couldn’t be the one to steal your excitement, I thought it was too late, that nobody actually stops a wedding the week before. As much as I wanted to say no, to make you listen, I didn’t want to be right about him.
How do I tell you that I hoped he would change? How do I tell you that I know he loves you, that his enraptured face as you walked down the aisle was genuine? I can see that the connection runs deeper than with anyone else, that he helped you at a time when I was not there. How can I say he could be perfect for you but that he isn’t enough?
You scared me so much last time you went into hospital and I can’t watch my sister go through that again. You have always been so much stronger than me, down to convincing me, from your hospital bed, to help you hide the medication you didn’t want to take.
I really thought you would be fine, and you were doing so much better. Now I look at you and see your body deteriorating again, far too quickly. How do I still be the little sister and also look after you? How do I tell you that he is killing you?