She’s a member of the world’s most popular current girl band, Little Mix, but life before stardom was inexplicably dark for 23-year-old Jade Thirlwall.
Her battle with anorexia, which had a stranglehold on the singer’s life from the tender age of 13, saw her body wither away to a troubling 38kg.
Jade was so suffocated by her illness, she was hospitalised and told by doctors, ‘You’re destroying your body and if you keep doing this you will die.’
The startling revelations make up a chapter of the band's new book, Our World, which documents the womens' lives during their meteoric rise to fame, including Perrie Edwards' tumultuous split from ex-One Directioner, Zayn Malik.
Before Jade, who is of Yemeni and Egyptian ancestry, found herself under the public spotlight, she says it was bullying, family problems and the death of a loved one that propelled her disordered eating.
"My periods stopped and things were getting out of control but I don't think I really cared about what was happening to me," she writes. "I felt so depressed at the time that I just wanted to waste away and disappear."
While people around her encouraged her to get help, the Black Magic singer said her disease made connecting with others problematic.