So – you’ve had a miscarriage.
By now, if you have shared the news with your family and friends, you are probably feeling reassured by the advice and support coming your way, such as: “It wasn’t meant to be”, “at least you can fall pregnant” and “it’s really common, a friend of my cousin had two miscarriages before her three children”.
Because it’s just like learning to ride a bike, right? Brush yourself off and head back into the bedroom! Wrong. Dead wrong.
You are feeling isolated and confused and wondering why it has happened to you. It is taking longer to physically recover than you had imagined, the intense sadness and loss is lingering and you have the strong feeling that nobody understands what you are going through.
Sound familiar? I know because I have been through it several times. Here are some insights I wish I had had back then. I hope they can benefit you now.
1. You are not alone.
A study from the Australian Longitudinal Study on Women’s Health in 2009 placed the miscarriage statistics close to 1 in 3 women, not the 1 in 6 which seems to be the common myth.
Take a moment to consider this. How many women do you come into contact with on a daily basis? It is likely that at least a couple of them have experienced or are experiencing what you are going through. If you feel brave enough, try sharing a little bit of information with someone you feel a connection to. You may be surprised by what comes back.
This week marks the start of Never Forgotten: Mamamia’s Pregnancy Loss Awareness Week.
2. It is not your fault.
It is so easy to start blaming yourself after a miscarriage. Did I push myself too hard at the gym? Was that box I lifted too heavy? There can be an endless stream of guilt rushing around inside your head. Try not to let it overwhelm you. In the majority of cases you will never know the exact cause. Placing the responsibility solely on yourself only hurts one person – you. With everything else you are dealing with you can do without the added, self-imposed stress.
I will say it again – it is not your fault.
3. You don’t need to share your news with everyone.
While I am a huge believer in healing through sharing, it doesn’t hurt to be selective. Choose your confidantes carefully. There is nothing worse that being judged or patronised at this vulnerable time. You want to walk away from a conversation with someone feeling better, not doubting yourself even more.
4. Keep an eye on your partner.
Miscarriage is 90% about the woman, and so it should be. It is you who goes through the physical loss and is then left to recover both emotionally and physically. But it is easy for your partner to get lost somewhere in the background. As hard as it is at the time, his loss needs to be acknowledged too. For just like you he was imagining a future with your child.