To my dear friends at Duval College.
For many of us, it’s been five years since we first met over a game of breakfast bingo or in the halls of F Block. 2013 was the year of many new friends for me. Despite many of my friends from first year moving on, my decision to stay at college for a second year was undoubtedly the best decision I have ever made.
I wasn’t to know what was to come, but I know my life would have taken a very different path if it wasn’t for my friends down the hall, up the stairs or across the courtyard of Duval College at the University of New England in Armidale, New South Wales.
Because, when my world came tumbling down that Tuesday night in March 2013, it wasn’t my childhood friends, high school besties or even my family who could be there for me, it was you.
You were the ones who heard the wails of a girl who just lost her sister echo up the stairwell. You were the ones who pulled my limp body from the floor and walked me – step by step – to my room as I cried out her name; the ones who packed my bags with all the things I didn’t know I needed and held me in your arms as I stared blankly into my wardrobe looking for something to wear to my 17-year-old sister’s funeral.
You were the ones who saw me off that sad and foggy night with hugs, adrenaline and teary eyes. The ones I left behind to cry in the hallway, while I went home to the empty space that had been left by my sister, and my devastated parents, who had only just got home from the hospital.
You were the ones who were shocked and shaken right to your very core, simply by association. Many of you had never even met my sister, yet my loss was your loss. Your heart broke with mine that night.
For many of you, it was your first experience with that all-consuming loss, grief, devastation, and despair. Unlike your wrinkled grandparents or elderly neighbours, the death of a young person – not that much younger than you – is shocking and incomprehensible for even the coldest of hearts. There is just so much that could have, would have and should have been. So much promise; so much life left to live.
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For many of you, the loss of my sister was a reality check. A reminder that life is short and unpredictable. A reminder to call home, to reach out, to tell your mother, father, brothers and sisters how much you love them, even if they steal your clothes or use up all the internet.
A reminder that there are bigger things in this world than you and me. Bigger things than pub nights and gossip; breakups and assignment due dates. That night gave us all a cold, hard perspective: nothing can ever be as bad as losing someone you love, without as much as a goodbye.