The reality TV star and mum of Darcy, 5, said she wanted to share her own story in the hope of helping other mothers who are going through the same thing.
“My battle was very traumatic and one that almost claimed me,” she wrote on Instagram. “I have never gone through a mental health battle in my life and that’s why I was so surprised when shortly after my boy Darcy was born, I quickly deteriorated into pit of despair and horror and I was drowning in a hole of a tormented mind.”
Rowland says “panic attacks filled [her] days” and she was stuck in this cycle for months until she was so exhausted that she also became depressed.
“A black cloud shadowed my being and I lost every ounce of hope and couldn’t see a way out,” she said. “The symptoms that panic attacks and depression brought left me sick in the stomach all the time, a racing heart, sweaty, clammy and physically incapable of eating, sleeping or functioning.”
The 33-year-old said she was totally incapacitated and she got to the point where she thought things would only get better if she wasn’t around anymore.
However, Rowland did get better and she has a message for mums who are currently going through Postnatal Depression.