Before I had children I looked at people with kids and thought how easy it was. I saw kids misbehaving in public and I instantly thought, ‘they need to control their children’.
I couldn’t believe women stayed home all day with their kids – what did they do? How incredibly boring, I was sure they watched tv all day or maybe sat and made Play Doh.
I would stare at women breastfeeding in public and wonder how they felt comfortable doing that.
But when you actually become a parent and have to deal with endless amounts of bullshit thrown your way, your perception immediately changes and I will be the first to admit I was incredibly wrong.
I’ve been a mother longer than any other job I’ve held, ever. I always wanted to advance, to get paid more, to explore the unknown – now I chill in a house all day with screaming, shitting, joy! I’m sure this will be misinterpreted by someone and they will be all like, ‘bitch you made your bed’. Bitch I know.
I have spent hours doing research. Research that I hope/will change my life forever. For some reason, at the ripe old age of 17 I decided I wanted to be a lawyer. I started my degree a couple of years later and realised it wasn’t for me. I love numbers, there can only be one right answer. But do you know what really gets me excited? Writing! I have had this little blog for almost three years now, doing it as a hobby. I have written plenty of things that I haven’t published – they may never be. I have been writing a book, on and off for maybe five years now. What am I doing with it?! So, I think it’s time to pull my finger out of my ass and do something – for me. You are my witness, I will push myself to make this dream a reality. Here’s to putting myself out there, furthering my skills and knowledge and doing something amazing! Lastly, thank you Sienna for being such a creative little girl taking photos that make my skin look flawless and not exhausted. Love you. Let’s seep! #love #writer #writing #blog #blogger #bloggermum #mum #mumlife #mummylife #mumblogger #mumofthree #mom #momlife #mommylife #momblogger #mommyblogger #sydneyblogger #aussieblogger #happy #happiness #mummyblogger
As a mother we always seem to start sentences with “I love my children, but..” I don’t want to say that anymore. Everyone knows I love my children, everyone knows I wanted to have them – but fuck what about me? Am I just meant to forget about my needs?
Somewhere between child number one, two and three I have, like many other women, lost my identity. I shall now be referred to as Sienna, Annabelle and/or Juliette’s mum. The girls dancing teacher doesn’t even know my name… But, I didn’t just stop being me when I had kids, or did ? Am I being selfish?
What were your first thoughts on seeing your child? (Post continues after video.)