“I remember not being able to move my arms and legs,” rape victim Brenda Tracy told the Oregonian in 2014.
“I was like a rag doll. They were picking me up and tossing me around the whole apartment.”
In 1998 when Tracy was just 24 years old she was gang raped by four football players from her home-state of Oregon.
The mother-of-two had decided to join a friend at a gathering happening at the apartment of an Oregon State University (OSU) football player. Amongst others at the same gathering were another OSU player, a high-school recruit and a community college player.
At some point during an evening of drinking and playing video games Tracy passed out, eventually waking up to find the high-school recruit on top of her.
Brenda Tracy today. Source: Facebook.
While two of the rapists received a one-game suspension - with their coach, Mike Riley, saying the men were "really good guys who made a bad choice" - it was the harshest punishment any of the four men would ever face.
"The attack lasted more than six hours and as I went in and out of consciousness the things that they did to me are now burned into my memory," the survivor went on to write.
"Like a piece of cattle I was branded, never to forget eight hands on me, inside me, their laughs as they high-fived each other in a congratulatory manner as they each took turns raping me. . . Never to forget the next morning when I awoke to the smell of dried vomit in my hair, the stickiness of a condom stuck to my stomach, the food crumbs that left indentations on my skin as I lay face down on the apartment floor like a piece of garbage that someone forgot to pick up."
College rape survivor Brenda Tracy 18 years on. Source: Facebook.
But earlier this week, 18 years on, Tracy made her way to the University of Nebraska to speak to the college football team about the effects rape can have on its survivors. In that room of people listening was Mike Riley.
Because nearly two decades after the nurse and assault advocate's life was changed forever, Riley invited Tracy to the school for the important student talk.
"At one point I hated this man more than my rapists," Tracy told the room full of students while pointing to Riley.
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The morning after the rape, Tracy's friend found her naked on the floor being covered by a blanket. After being returned home, Tracy decided that she would report what happened to the police before committing suicide.
"I'd made my mind up after talking to police that I was going to do the rape examination, then I was going to go kill myself," she said.
The nurse giving Tracy her exam, however, managed to convince her to keep fighting.
She reported the incident to the police and within days the media coverage was huge. Tracy was told the case would be hard for her to win and likely to come down to a "he says she says."
Combined with a huge amount of backlash from the football-loving community, Tracy dropped all charges against the men.