“As a dyslexic kid, my biggest fear in life was to go in front of the class and read”.
The win, and her consequent acceptance speech, seemed to be the culmination of her efforts after years of repressing her true self.
Yet coming out as transgender wasn’t Caitlyn Jenner’s biggest fear. Reading an autocue is.
In her latest blog post, the 65-year-old athlete, father of many and newly-minted transgender icon details the lead-up to the ESPYs, plus the speech she was terrified of making.
The dress was the easy bit, she wrote, after Donatella Versace herself got in touch and offered to make it (yo Donatella, I’m going to a wedding on the weekend, would you mind whipping something up?).
On the night of the awards, Jenner stayed backstage and didn’t watch the live show for fear that she would “start to lose it”.
Next challenge was walking up to the stage in her long, elegant dress, but fortunately she had soccer player Abby Waumbach helped her up on stage.
Suddenly, there was nothing for it but to give the speech she’d rehearsed and agonised over for weeks.