Former Cosmopolitan Editor and mother of three Bronwyn McCahon has revealed that she struggled to conceive her first baby.
In an interview with the lifestyle website Show and Tell, McCahon shared that after six months of trying to fall pregnant, she miscarried at just eight weeks.
After “completely changing her life” to prepare for welcoming a baby into her home, losing the baby was a real shock for McCahon.
“You have to start again and [you think] what if? And why?” McCahon said. “[It’s] hard because you think ‘I was on the road to something.'”
“You have a due date and you have plans in place and you start to get excited and you talk about names and how life will change.”
McCahon said that her colleagues at Cosmopolitan magazine were very supportive at this difficult time.
“It’s amazing, having worked in an office of all women for almost 16 years we speak about this stuff all the time,” McCahon said. “It’s a really unique office in that sense that nothing is off limits, I look at what I’ve been through with my staff an we’ve been through divorces, pregnancies, miscarriages, abortions, news love and all of that.”
“We talk about it so openly [and] we know each other so intimately.”
“It’s just like an open forum.”
McCahon is grateful that she felt comfortable talking about miscarriage because she believes that conversation between big issues between women is “so important.”
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“Some women feel like a bit of a failure if they’ve had a miscarriage or there’s something wrong with them, but it’s so common,” McCahon said.
Following the miscarriage, McCahon and her husband Phil continued to try with a baby for a full year. She admits that sex with her husband during this time was not always fun.
“I was gonna punch people in the face if they told me to relax and stop thinking about it and make it romantic,” McCahon said. “Having sex when you’re trying for a baby and you’ve been trying for a while is so not sexy or romantic.”
“It’s ‘Quick! My cervical mucus tells me I’m ovulating and I’ve spat on this and peed on that.'”
Like many women who struggle with fertility McCahon felt like everyone was falling pregnant but her.